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Pasheman means regret. Pashemani is to regret.

kaifi-azmi-arthAn absolutely wonderful nazm penned by Kaifi Azmi that is titled Pashemani that expresses this feeling with intensity –

Main ye soch kar us ke dar se utha tha
Ki vo rok legi mana legi mujh ko
Hawaon mein lehraata aata tha daman
Ki daaman pakad kar bitha legi mujh ko
Qadam iss andaz se uth rahe the
Ki awaaz de kar bula legi mujhko

Magar usne roka na mujhko manaya
Na daaman hi pakda na mujhke bithaya
Na awaaz hi di na mujhko bulaya
Main ahista ahista badta hi aaya
Yahan tak ki us se juda ho gaya main

I had thought, when I got up to leave her doorway
That she would stop me, would persuade me to stay back
The hem of my clothing that was swaying in the breeze
She would hold on to it and make me sit down again
I was taking steps while walking away, in such a way
That she would raise her voice and call out to me

But she did not stop me or persuade me to stay
Neither did she hold on to the edge of my dress, or make me sit down
Neither did she raise her voice or call out to me
I walked slowly and slowly, going further away
And went so far that we were separated.